No-One Left to Prick

Ah, the steady cactus, a proud and prickly thing…
Nowhere else have I seen such a stubborn specimen.
She could wrestle chill or flame, withstand the harshest gale.
Even then, she’ll bounce right back and live to tell the tale.

She squats upon a windowsill, her spines pinching the sky.
Her pot’s been twice replaced while languid days have lumbered by.
And nothing ever changes much for her tidy, simple life –
Nothing but the view; concrete buildings, growing rife.

I think of arid climates, scorching suns and rainless slaughter –
The tribulations hard endured for the slightest hint of water.
And how the cactus came to be, evolving in dessication…
Now, we could learn a thing or two from cacti’s acclimation.

The air is growing tighter now, to view it in reflection.
A climate spurred by passing cars and brooding insurrection.
One day soon, it may be that the desert starts to spread –
Leaving nature weeding through the cracks left in our stead.

Ah, the steady cactus, I find solace in her power –
A stranger in our choking land of progress by the hour.
In the end, I’m sure my cactus will find some way to stick –
A monument of conservation… with no-one left to prick.

Where Are You, Mom?

I don’t know what I hear–
I think they’re fireworks.
I don’t know what I see.
They look like fireflies in the sky.
I don’t know what we’re celebrating.
I only see people running.

The shooting stars.
I’ve seen them closer than ever, Mom.
I can’t touch them because they explode and disappear
like magic before my eyes.

It all seems like a circus.
I think I’m part of the event too.
I’ve never been to one, but
I thought the animals were different.
No one smiles, they just cry, Mom.

There are no stars,
But the night shines.
There’s no moon,
But the silence is a scream.
There are no people.
Their shadows haunt me…

I’m scared, Mom.

I’m alone.
Searching for your skin in the roots,
Searching for your voice in the bombs,
Searching for your steps among the rubble
Searching for your body among ghosts.

Where are you, Mom?

It’s dark…
The fireworks aren’t over yet.
But the game is, almost, Mom… you won.
The game of hide-and-seek
I don’t want to play anymore.
I don’t want any more bombs and toy guns.

Come out, Mom!

Where are you…?
Come back, Mom.

I call your name and you don’t answer.
I give up, Mom.
Come out,
I don’t want to play anymore.

You won, Mom.
You won….

Such Sweet Sorrow

I know it’s hard to tell
But I’m really wishing you well;
Even packed a bit of lunch for you
And you can go to — .

Don’t hesitate on my behalf
Cause I’m no longer part of your staff.
If I never hear from you, it’s just too soon,
And it doesn’t even hurt when I laugh.

If
I’m wrong,
I’ll sing a different song.
Parting now is such sweet sorrow.
And yet moving on.

So long.

Look, we’ve come this far
And shared a special star.
But don’t look back for any final wave
Just get your mess in your car.

What You Taught Me

Feed a cold, starve a fever.
Forgive, but don’t forget.
Fight for your rights —
That’s what you taught me.

When I needed to be accepted, though,
And appreciated, loved, for who I was
You judged and directed
And praised me for pleasing you.

You… whose every mood needed to be studied and attended to since I can remember.
At least since I was six.

You… who needed her delicate disposition cared for like a child, but cared for
By a child.

When that is not a child’s job.

Ask around.

Oh, I still love you.  

Road to Dendron

A shopping cart,
On its side, curled up,
Sunken in the river;
Lily pads gilded
Its edges, softening
Lines and loops that
Watched a child grow
In the grocery store,
While her father did the best he could;

Swans preen,
Curled up, among
Tulips, crocuses,
While a crone
Smokes cigarettes
Outside the bodega
With glass bottles– 
Green, blue, bountiful
As hyacinth;
The sun kisses her face,
With freckles, laugh lines,
Rouge; she did the best she could.

Migrant

Note: A profound thank you to Daniel at DS Productions for his impassioned background music which is featured in the audio recording of this piece.

Our land is on fire, regardless of the soil that sustains us,
Our soul is burning, regardless of the lava that cloaks us;
Our body dances the ballet that embraces us.

We are naked and unprotected bodies,
Like migrants born to conquer
The land of the unknown,
The land of the unheard,
The land of absence.

You and I are migrants,
Migrants like the sin of being.

We are nothing more than displaced bodies that seek, amid prayers,
To silence the hunger, arrogance, and abuse of those
Who inhibit our being.
We are nothing more than souls trying to give substance to the ashes that have Blossomed from our being.

We are nothing else than rejected bodies in a land we did not choose to be,
When our life, lost in the mist, searches for the light
To reach praise of the gods,
Once, our tears went unheard.

When Forever Ended

Day turned into night–
Your warm embrace suddenly turned cold,
And never saw the shadow of the sun

Until forever ended,
You were my safe place,
Calm in a noisy world,
The harbor where my heart
Rested;

You were home,
Not four walls, a roof and doors,
But arms that soothed,
Eyes that saw everything, like window glass, never judged,
A voice that sang love songs,
Legs that never walked away.

But now,
Now, the silence screams,
louder than a music hall, 
Drowning out a thunderstorm; 
Our laughter– once song–
Echoes in my ears;
Even if I tried to forget, 
I couldn’t, I danced to the tune. 

Every morning, I wake up to the ache,
of remembering you’re no longer here.
No longer the home that brings peace, joy, and hope.
No longer the future so bright.
Losing you feels like
A wound that won’t heal.
Maybe it will– tomorrow, or someday.

Now I’m left picking up pieces
of a forever that promised to stay forever
Just maybe, 
My love remains, quiet, and invisible,

But still burning softly,
in those warm corners of my soul.
It will remain till it fades away, forever.

Tick, Talk

I saw your fingers twitch,
While your phone was in your pocket.
You talked about the news, and that
Artist in Phoenix you keep seeing
Everywhere, now that you are on TikTok;

The clock keeping ticking, as I wait for
You to arrive; I have not seen you much–
I know you cry a lot
When you text me, instead of calling;
We used to talk for hours,
Back at the cabin up in Maine,
The one with red clover out front,
Seafoam shutters– I remember
Watching you, watching the world–

Where did you go?

The Crash

Just caught the video
The moving internet image
The safest airspace
In this country
On this planet
Within the unknown universe

Approach from the right
Patrol from the left
No audio of course
And the separate sets
Of strobing aeronautic bulbs
Glide silently into one another

I remember how this feels
When i first felt this horror
Horror undefinable
Tragedy incomprehensible
A shredding of belief
Chaos of the soul

I remember
How could you forget
What a fucking trigger
Straight to the heart
8543 days ago I felt this way
Perpetual unknowable tomorrow

 

Scraps of Myself

Sometimes, I look behind and laugh at myself
For all the foolish acts I had put on.
At present, I wish I could go back to the past.
If only I could freeze the time and stay forever there
In the bubble that I created with my lively laughter and chatter. 

If only I didn’t have to care about the opinions of people around me.
If only I could just live for myself.
Not the shadow of who I seem to be.
If only I could find my long-lost playfulness.

And now it finally makes sense
I had lost myself ages ago.
All I have left is the remains of the illusion of me.